someone is a grumpy gus, and the someone is me, gus. i went to the haircut store today. right here in my very own bathroom. it did not go too well. but not too bad either. just emotionally draining. maybe what i need to do is...oh i yeah. i definitely need to watch more tv. oh god tv. you are so very very good to me, i couldnt live without you. well, not again anyways. america is bad. television is really bad. i think it makes me bad too. my brain bad. my throat hurts. i lost at basketball. i start school tomorrow. i am dumb. and ugly. with a poorly shaped head. oh the shape of my head. so lumpy. god i wish i had a sweet super aerodynamic head that used the wind like a sail. this has not been helpful. fuck you writing.

hello introspection

not sick but morbid lifes too short
dont shorten it
stab me to death
with a fork for the sport of it
this sad behavior
dont encourage it

hello sad songs and introspection, hello the other side of the moon and mars hill church. hello the wah mee massacre and fake walt whitman rambling on and on. hello to feeling a little lonely. hello liquid sunshine falling from the sky forever and ever. hello the underbelly of seattle. hello good dreams and being home. hello starting school. hello uneasiness. hello absolute honesty. hello honesty so deep and sharp it cuts to shreds all the colors except silver and blue. hello my craziness. hello goodbye to my political aspirations. hello saying things that have an intended affect on others rather than what i really feel. hello resentment. hello the unknown. you've got a habit.

hello kansas sunset goodbye